When our faith and beautiful way of Torah life becomes a path full of struggle, questions and answers that raises even more questions. Coming from a home and not given the space to learn, to grow, can be overwhelming.
Kayla Haber- Goldstein grew- up in a Charedi community in Israel, as a daughter of a Rabbi. When she married Shmuel Goldstein, she realized that she didn't want to have the same family life she experienced and began to question her way of life
Kayla was surprised by what she found out,
" Our heritage has so much nuance and spectrum, and you can find really your own place."
She always believed that she was the only one, but after talking to friends and other women, made her realize that there are a lot of women feeling the same way as she did. Kayla believes that Charedi women should get the opportunity to learn more than only the basic's taught at school.
Kayla is a Entreneurial Designer and has her own business, lives with her husband and three children in Brooklyn NY. She was born in Australia, raised in Israel and moved to New York. She wrote a book "Questioning the Answers" an honest search to discover truth and answers of the ways of Judaism.
Kayla now identifies herself as FFB/BT, as a Baalas Teshuvah. There might be some of the questions we also struggle with,
* How do we align with Judaism in our lives, that religious practice doesn't become or feels like a burden?
* How can Orthodox education be improved to encourage spiritual growth?
* How can we make changes to our own lives, within the boundries of halacha?
When Kayla had her near- death experience, on " the other side," but she returned back to a life of trauma, doubt and even feeling anger towards HaShem at times. The conflict, her fears, but also the love within her marriage to Shmuel.
When a wife choose a completely different path of that of her husband, it was Shmuel " red line system " that saved there marriage, as divorce was no option. How they raise their children, and how most couples would have given up on their marriage too soon. But the question remains, how do they reconnect when certain values has changed?
Their story, their pain, yet hopeful in rebuilding trust, reshaping that trust. Their story is a emotional rollercoaster.
From navigating Shabbos to opening a home to struggling young people, they made it all possible, in a meaningful way rebuilding their life of hope and trust.
If you ever question your faith, your path, or even your relationship with your husband or wife, then their story will resonate with you.
Meaning and hope is what their story will give you.
May HaShem bless this lovely family.